I met a guy. He was actually been thru the same situation.
His mom got sick. On off to the hospital, almost every single day. We understand each other. We got each other. I advised him what to do, tried to comfort him to not worry too much. We shared the same interest. Everything was okay and went well.
One day, I prayed to Allah if he's the one, show me the best path. It took few months to have a serious talk about relationship. All I can say that he was not ready. I can't do anything if he doesn't feel the same as I do. I can feel it. I gave him space and chance. We supposed to go out for a date. But he didn't show up and canceled everything.
And I prayed again. I believe Allah SWT is The Best Planner.
I scrolled randomly on my IG. I saw him with someone else. Clearly with someone else. I was holding myself, gripped myself. Again clueless. Closed my eyes and breathe. Yes, my heart said he is not the one for me. We talked about it. But this is it. I had to let him go. He didn't want to choose sides. I decided to go. Heartbroken (I was stupid to trust a guy like that). It all happened just a night before my mom passed away.
I was heartless. That was the most lowest weakest moment ever in my life.
Only Allah SWT has the answer. We as human need to believe His Plan, His Arrangement, His blessings. Always believe in Him. Pray to Him.
I believe one day, there will be a rainbow after the rain.