24 September 2016 7:30 am Mama telah kembali ke Rahmatullah. Pergi tidak kembali lagi. Tepat pukul 7.00 pagi, Ayah kejut ku dari tidur untuk melihat saat saat akhir Mama. Nafasnya, Ya Rabb. Allah saja yang tahu. Mata kirinya telah tertutup sayu kelihatan. Mama kuatkan diri untuk menghadap kiblat lalu membaca dua kalimah Syahadah. Aku terus mencium tangan dan kepala nya. Diri ku terus rebah, air mata terus membasahi pipi tanpa henti, fikiran tidak menentu. Terkedu. Tergamam. SubhanaAllah. Dua nafas terakhir Mama. Dia telah pergi. Sekelip mata Ya Allah. Sekelip mata di jemput Malaikat. Al-Fatihah.
Been away for so long. It feels like a second until we are here again in Holy month of Ramadan. Alhamdulillah.
On last February, Allah has given me a chance to perform an Umrah in the most Holiest city of Islam, Mecca Al Mukarramah. Syukur Alhamdulillah. I could never imagined that I was there right in front of Kaabah standing very numb and felt how small I am in this Dunya. The greatest feeling. SubhanaAllah. He is The Greatest.
Just graduated last month. Alhamdulillah.
My degree has officially certified with First Class Honours.
Few years back, I planned for something which I thought it could be real.
Just be on track and move to next phase of life, I was wrong.
Now I learn so much about how real life is. Get a job, be with family & friends
Have fun. I think my life is so complete. Nope. Still struggling to find my way
and trying to be a better Muslimah.
6 months without a proper job makes you think of something you might not do
in future. Limited time, stress, problems? Negative vibes.
I just hope that I'll continue Istiqomah in whatever I do.
Slowly, step by step. In sha Allah.
Doa or prayers are like walls. When foundations (solat) are fully filled, it needs a protection shield. So called Doa. Doa for someone you loved the most. For someone you cannot be with. I wish Allah will give me one more chance to meet him...Amin.